Expectation

It has been a good day today.

I mean, I expected something to happen, it didn’t, so I should feel disappointed. But I am not. I just felt relieved. Relieved in a weird way, because I am not at a point that I can fully relax (for example, I wish to go to a float tank session soon, but I bet my mind will go crazy in there if I go now with my unsettled mind).

Nonetheless, I also realise I can hack how I feel by adjusting my expectation. You see, the classic service satisfaction model states that satisfaction equals to the gap between perceived values and the expected value. If I can use my resilience to control my expectation to the lowest, then I’ll always have a happy life.

Based on this gap model, I am able to stay very calm and smooth during the day today.

And perhaps for the same reason, I also have a very enjoyable evening as well. I am at Jac’s school for his string orchestra concert, and I would say by far this is the best school orchestra I have ever encountered. The orchestra at the old place provided me a very effective reference to boost up my satisfaction here tonight. I am glad that we are here but not there.

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Why we are here?

This is always the biggest and deepest questions that we are trying to avoid to answer.

Seriously, what if the answer is “Nothing”?

How can you tell? You cannot. I have tried to answer Chester this question myself the other day. My answer to him is simple. Just like Buzz Lightyear won’t have a clue that he is merely a toy if he is still in the game, or Neo is still Mr Anderson until Trinity broke him free. The catch is, you will know if any only if you have left the game.

I am trying to jot down the log as it goes. Just in case one day I leave the game but for some reason my consciousness links to this world would still be working, then I know where to show off my proof to the being at the next dimension.

Let’s get started. Feel free to join me.

And I can promise you that my log tomorrow would be more funny and joyful. Stay tuned.