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On Diet Week 3

I didn’t plan 2 weeks ago to be Week 1. But being Week 3 today makes me feel that the mission has been on going for a while, and might fool me to think that it has already become a normal practice of myself. Furthermore, since I have already lost some weight since then, so I already could have some sense of achievement right from the beginning. Ha ha.

Anyway, after the salad yesterday, I lost 1.2 lbs as compared with 2 days ago. It was not that amazing, as my weight usually going up and down a lot within a week. So if I can keep this gap after a month, then that is a real achievement.

To make things simple, I would mark the real weight (1×4 lbs) three weeks ago as X lbs, and I tried to record my reduction of my weight on the blog as often as possible.

Since the number X was three weeks ago, so as of today, I am now 1.6 lbs away from X lar! My target is to reach at least 4.1 lbs reduction by end of next week. Usually it is easier to acheive big numbers at the start, so hope I could do that.

Thanks for the comment by MadDog, but yesterday I tried skipping breakfast, and not working too well for me, as my morning is quite miserable. Instead, this morning I tried Oak Meal as breakfast. So far my feeling is very good. But I don’t expect to see a good reason tomorrow, as today is my last day here and we will have party tonight. Party usually put weight on a person. Anyway, cheers!


First Kick

My sweet wife Chris worries about how my boy is slowing down in response. I could only share her feeling by how she describe to me and by showing me her joy with her facial expression. So I can’t tell what it feels like to have a baby inside.

She has been telling the baby to “kick” her or at least to show her some sign to reassure his existence. And he did. I guess he did, because Chris said that she could feel some strange feeling inside, like he is swimming around and turning. It is a very exciting moment. I also feel the joy too, because we can sense a life among us, within us, and as a result of us. The feeling is so great.

Give a chance for a life. A new life

30 minutes after I posted my thought, my wife share with me a very deep and touching thought about life (lives).

She said that the whole thing is about how we are giving a chance for another life to get started. It is not about how we need to control that life.

It is like how we are donating a ticket of Disney to a kid for him/her to enjoy (the assumption is that we also have enjoyed our time in Disney ourselves). We think that Disney is a good place to have fun, so we invite another soul to go there and enjoy. We might suggest to them which attraction and games to go for, we might even suggest the sequence and tactics to go for those attraction / games, but we should not be bothered if he/she would walked in the park differently.

Yes, it is a grace from God or who/what ever that we could be part of making the “Life” itself going forward and doing little bits and pieces of enhancement here and there for the whole race. It is like the philosophy of the open source software platform: everybody could, if willing to, have the chance to take part in the progress of the mankind. This feeling is great.

I am gonna be a father

It has been great to have the feeling that I could have the second chance to do what I have done, again, in a better way or not, with the heart, soul, brain and body of my kid. It is a mixed feeling about how in the first place I don’t want to step into the old parenthood style which force the child to replicate their own thought; but on the other hand I do have lots of experiences sitting there trying to jump into his coming unplanned agenda of himself.

I know I hate this if my parent did that on me (practically, my parents didn’t do that on me, or I didn’t allow them to), and so I have to avoid that myself. But after 30+X years of experiences, I really learnt a lot! I really have something to share! And I really hope that my kid won’t waste his time on the same thing that I regretted to waste time for, or hope that my kid would have started something that I missed my chances. I know my parents (especially my dad) should have thought that million times for the past 30 years….

Perhaps that’s one of the reasons why I am so eager to going for being a teacher now. I really would like to learn the way to share my heart, my soul, my brain (but not my body) to other people. And if I know how to do this with a stranger, I am sure I could then do that with my kid. I know my dad is suffering from the inability in doing this. I observed his pain, and I am trying to avoid that. Thanks dad. I have started to know how it is like to be you.

I used to tell a joke about Ferrari. I said that it is not rich enough even if I drive a Ferrari myself. I could really call myself rich if I could give a Ferrari to my kid as his/her birthday present. I now have that feeling. I am still no body even if I could be a successful / good heart / rich / giving / whatever person, until if my kid could become one. I really would like to be a good dad. A real dad. And I need help on that. But I know the strength and effort should be coming from within. For that I could only pray. Thanks God. Thanks Justin.

My iPod Video arrived last Friday

I finally got my new toy last Friday evening. At the end I have decided to get the thinner 30GB instead of the 60GB, firstly because the 11mm thickness is just too attractive, and secondly they have stock for 30GB but not 60GB. For the same reason I got the white instead of the black (I originally reserved a black unit from the store). Well, I believe if the device has scratches, then the black body color would make the scratches become more obvious to be noticed. So in that consideration, I prefer white then (although black is cooler, but what good if it looks cool but crappy?)

The slim design makes my original 3rd generation 30GB iPod looks like a brick. I remember I used to like that design. Now I can’t remember why. With the new iPod I can really put it in my shirt pocket without really feeling it.

One bad thing about the device is that we don’t have access to the iTunes Music Store account, so all we can do there is to download the video podcasts, but cannot download (purchase) any Desperate Housewives, Lost, Pixars’ catoons and Coldplay’s music videos. I have spent extra HK$2xx to upgrade my Quicktime to Quicktime Pro, so that I could convert other mpeg files into the iPod format. My aim is to also put my wife’s and baby’s movies and photos in the iPod. I have converted a few clippings from the Quicktime site into the iPod format, and it looks really smooth in the iPod.

The next bad thing about the device is that it is still very easy to get scratches on the body (and as I said, that’s one of the reasons why I finally decided to get the white instead of the black unit). I am not sure how Apple could live with this after five generations of iPod and the recent complaints with the Nano. I am waiting for the silicon case to protect it.

Apart from these 2 bad points, I love this product very much (so far). It keeps its long winning UI, plus all the new features in Nano (world clock, device lock etc). It works perfectly with iTunes 6.1, and most important of it, it is slim and beautiful. I would give a 9/10 (9 out of 10) rating to this iPod.

Believing is Seeing

The boss of my boss’ boss always says this in front of us:

“Seeing is Believing” is not correct, because it should be “Believing is Seeing”.

I always thought this is a stupid slogan, just to push us to make silly commitment to our works. Today, I finally feel the meaning of it.

This evening I was discussing the topic #2 of my New Year Resolution with my wife. I told her that I had a good feeling to have kids and family after watching the movie “The Incredibles“, but I still have doubt about how we could really make it happens. With that feeling in mind, I could not say a firm yes.

Then my wife said the following, which I found very stunning to myself, although it sounds so normal and so logical. She said: “we should not always confirm our target after we know how we could achieve the target. Instead, we should examine the intended result, and if we believe we would enjoy the result, then we should firstly confirm the target, and then think of how we could achieve the target.”

It is all very true. Sometimes I spent so long to perform the “feasibility study” before I confirm whether I should move forward or not, until it is too late to confirm. If I could believe in what I am going to see, then eventually I would some how make myself seeing it. If on the other hand I have to stand still until the stage that I am able to see it first, it is meaningless to ask myself to believe in it anymore, coz any how I am already there, no matter if I believe it or not.

New Year Resolution 2005

I only learn this word “Resolution” after I have started blogging. I thought it only means the pixel dimension of a screen…

I guess it is ok to define my New Year resolution within the first month of the year, although usually I should have frozen them at the end of last year.

Here is the List of my top 10 resolution:

(1) To apply for PhD.

(2) To discuss if we would have kids or not.

(3) As a backup of (1), to explore job opportunity which also utilize my strengths.

(4) To review and organize the record (good and bad) of my life so far, and establish a system for easy update.

(5) To set up schedule to read books regularly, and to identify the proper channel to constantly absorb new knowledge.

(6) To set up a system for easy capturing of information and thoughts collected, and for easy recording and expression of feeling and emotion.

(7) To establish the pattern of regular Exercise.

(8) To improve in the area of “Focus”. So, have to restrict the wish list to only 8 items. Bye for now!