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I am gonna be a father

It has been great to have the feeling that I could have the second chance to do what I have done, again, in a better way or not, with the heart, soul, brain and body of my kid. It is a mixed feeling about how in the first place I don’t want to step into the old parenthood style which force the child to replicate their own thought; but on the other hand I do have lots of experiences sitting there trying to jump into his coming unplanned agenda of himself.

I know I hate this if my parent did that on me (practically, my parents didn’t do that on me, or I didn’t allow them to), and so I have to avoid that myself. But after 30+X years of experiences, I really learnt a lot! I really have something to share! And I really hope that my kid won’t waste his time on the same thing that I regretted to waste time for, or hope that my kid would have started something that I missed my chances. I know my parents (especially my dad) should have thought that million times for the past 30 years….

Perhaps that’s one of the reasons why I am so eager to going for being a teacher now. I really would like to learn the way to share my heart, my soul, my brain (but not my body) to other people. And if I know how to do this with a stranger, I am sure I could then do that with my kid. I know my dad is suffering from the inability in doing this. I observed his pain, and I am trying to avoid that. Thanks dad. I have started to know how it is like to be you.

I used to tell a joke about Ferrari. I said that it is not rich enough even if I drive a Ferrari myself. I could really call myself rich if I could give a Ferrari to my kid as his/her birthday present. I now have that feeling. I am still no body even if I could be a successful / good heart / rich / giving / whatever person, until if my kid could become one. I really would like to be a good dad. A real dad. And I need help on that. But I know the strength and effort should be coming from within. For that I could only pray. Thanks God. Thanks Justin.

Believing is Seeing

The boss of my boss’ boss always says this in front of us:

“Seeing is Believing” is not correct, because it should be “Believing is Seeing”.

I always thought this is a stupid slogan, just to push us to make silly commitment to our works. Today, I finally feel the meaning of it.

This evening I was discussing the topic #2 of my New Year Resolution with my wife. I told her that I had a good feeling to have kids and family after watching the movie “The Incredibles“, but I still have doubt about how we could really make it happens. With that feeling in mind, I could not say a firm yes.

Then my wife said the following, which I found very stunning to myself, although it sounds so normal and so logical. She said: “we should not always confirm our target after we know how we could achieve the target. Instead, we should examine the intended result, and if we believe we would enjoy the result, then we should firstly confirm the target, and then think of how we could achieve the target.”

It is all very true. Sometimes I spent so long to perform the “feasibility study” before I confirm whether I should move forward or not, until it is too late to confirm. If I could believe in what I am going to see, then eventually I would some how make myself seeing it. If on the other hand I have to stand still until the stage that I am able to see it first, it is meaningless to ask myself to believe in it anymore, coz any how I am already there, no matter if I believe it or not.