New Year Resolution 2005

I only learn this word “Resolution” after I have started blogging. I thought it only means the pixel dimension of a screen…

I guess it is ok to define my New Year resolution within the first month of the year, although usually I should have frozen them at the end of last year.

Here is the List of my top 10 resolution:

(1) To apply for PhD.

(2) To discuss if we would have kids or not.

(3) As a backup of (1), to explore job opportunity which also utilize my strengths.

(4) To review and organize the record (good and bad) of my life so far, and establish a system for easy update.

(5) To set up schedule to read books regularly, and to identify the proper channel to constantly absorb new knowledge.

(6) To set up a system for easy capturing of information and thoughts collected, and for easy recording and expression of feeling and emotion.

(7) To establish the pattern of regular Exercise.

(8) To improve in the area of “Focus”. So, have to restrict the wish list to only 8 items. Bye for now!

New Neighbor (Part 2)

It has been only a few days. And it turns out like this. (click here to see the pic of how they started to dig the ground few days ago!)

So efficient! If I myself could do things with this speed, I could achieve anything!

One step at a time. I am not going to suddenly able to build a house in a week like these guys do. Let me plan to read TWO books today. That’s my plan. This evening, let me tell you how I go.

To Plan My Day

I have successfully done it again today. Every morning I would start the day with a target to spend at least 15 to 30 minutes to plan my day. And then every evening I would end the day with a feeling that I have wasted my day because I didn’t plan the day well, or didn’t plan the day at all. And today, of course, same thing has happened. I again asked myself to plan my day, and at the end blamed myself for not really doing it, again.

I have to stop this. I hate this feeling. I really really have to spend my first 30 minutes tomorrow to plan my day.

Let’s see what I would say tomorrow evening. Good night.

Second Chance

Sometimes it is so lucky that we are given the second chance to go over things again. However, there is no “rewind” in our real life.

It is like how we miss the chance to drink a cup of tea, and we have to pour hot water into the pot to make the second cup. It is the second chance, but it is not the same cup of tea. Sometimes the first cup is always better, sometimes on the other hand we on purpose pour away the first cup and only enjoy the second cup. The bottom line is, it is different, and not everything allows you to have that second cup. No one drinks the second cup of coffee, because it usually tastes like diluted charcoal water.

The Butterfly Effect

Anyone out there likes this movie as well? I like it very much. Yes, I am not talking about the real “butterfly effect” theory. I am talking about the Hollywood movie.

The butterfly effect states that any slight change in one part of the world would have a massive domino effect on lots of subsequent and perhaps unrelated events. On top of this, the movie “The Butterfly Effect” has an extra message, which is, of course, not being mentioned in the original theory: if we could go back in time, what ever we do differently – and positively, it would some what has a negative effect on the other aspect on our own life. It is because the world is fair.

In the story, no matter how hard Evan (the main guy) try to go back the time and change the history to save himself and to save the people around him, there would always be some new bad things pop up to balance out the change. I see this as a very hash but real observation of our life. Wouldn’t it be great if we could always run our life as how we play show hand: keep the good cards and change the bad cards? It reminds me how we play those RPG games. During set up, we always have to tune the statistics of the character at the start. Everybody is given certain among of total score. It is the user who would decide how to allocate the score. If we want to have more “wisdom”, then we might have to give up some “strength”. That’s life.

I watched the movie at home, which is the director cut in the DVD. I love the ending very much, and I feel lucky that I didn’t watch it in the cinema. For the welfare of those of you who has not yet bought the DVD, I am not going to spell out the difference. Please go and buy the DVD and watch all 4 different endings, and you will know what I mean.

New Neighbor

It is just shocking to know that there would be a new house built on the slope next to my little house. The machine started to dig a hole next to the house 2 days ago, and it is how we found out. No sign, no warning.

For those of you who have been really reading my blog and watching my photos, you would find that I have a nice balcony (and roof top) facing a sea view. Now half of the view and privacy would be blocked by my new neighbor! I still don’t understand what kind of technology allows people to build a house on a thin land like this!

(Pic 1 – L) The sea view (looking straight from our roof), (Pic 2 – R) The construction site (looking down from our roof, taken at the same spot as pic 1)

We have to buy new curtains and new security alarms because of this. Maybe I should organize a “farewell” BBQ soon, to say good bye to the view.

My wife comfort me and thought of a good point about this: the new house might help to block the noise from the highway. Well, everything, including the “bad thing” as it seem, has its good side. Sometimes it is just harder than usual to find that side out (or harder than usual to make it relevant to ourselves).


Very tired this week. It seems that what I have started on Monday only last till Tuesday. That is, my plan to start diving into the PhD application, and to start living within “the mode”. I need a break. Let me go out to the balcony to get some fresh air.
Many things have happened this week. Chris is very stress this week, and I worry her very much and she needs my support. At the same time, the office work is crazy this week. I have just been trying to keep up 70% of my job, which is, sit in the project meetings and keep fire out emails to project team members. I have no time to quiet down to think and organize myself.

I hope I could have energy to start doing some meaningful work this weekend. But I doubt it.